"but I chose you"

John 15:9-17
9 “As the Father loved Me, I also have loved you; abide in My love. 10 If you keep My commandments, you will abide in My love, just as I have kept My Father’s commandments and abide in His love. 11 “These things I have spoken to you, that My joy may remain in you, and that your joy may be full. 12 This is My commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you. 13 Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one’s life for his friends. 14 You are My friends if you do whatever I command you. 15 No longer do I call you servants, for a servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all things that I heard from My Father I have made known to you. 16 You did not choose Me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit, and that your fruit should remain, that whatever you ask the Father in My name He may give you. 17 These things I command you, that you love one another.

Wow, every time I read this I think to myself how blessed am I that God chose me. Why me I am not anybody special, I didn’t even grow up as a Christian. 1996 was the year, the year that I accepted the Lord in my life and I knew there was no turning back. He filled me so much that as I type this tears are falling down my face. I was so on fire for Him. All I wanted to do was please Him and serve Him. I really want to be on fire again. Somewhere in the last 8 years I lost that fire. I think it’s because I am trying to be a mom, wife and housekeeper first. What I need to do is get back to that place like I was in 1996. I need to put Him first all the time, every day. I know if I do this I will be on fire again. Even though I thought I was no one special back then, I do know now that He thinks I am special and all He wants is to spend intimate time with me. That's all He wants from all of us!!!

This where I accepted the Lord , 2 years before we were married. This week it has been 12 years since the day I accepted Christ as my Lord and Savior. I will never forget it because it was a Wednesday night service and the eve of Thanksgiving. It was an awesome service there was a husband and wife that did their ministry about the Potter and the clay. This is when my heart started to beat so fast and I just felt Gods presence surround me. I could not deny Him no more, I fell to my knees and accepted the Lord.